I should be reading “Works of Love” right about now, but the admission’s team finally created an account for me at GCTS even though my necessary letters wasn’t received by them yet. Just looking through the different courses that the school offers gets me giddy inside. I’m looking forward to learn more about Christianity and its history! The different methodologies and systematic studies will properly help dissect the Word. But I do have to remember to take care of my soul during seminary. This isn’t implied in the academic institute, so I am responsible to take care of my spiritual well being. Besides that, I’m looking forward to what’s ahead now that I can see what I’m dealing with. I know there will be tons of reading, writing, and research involved during my time there. But, I hope God will bless me to find joy in the midst of it and excel there. Gahhhhh, sooo stoked!
Yesterday afternoon a famous comedian, loved by all ages, passed away in Tiburon, California. Robin Williams was known for his animated performance, phenomenal improvisation, and moving roles. He was truly a talented man in the entertainment world. He impacted my life and influenced me with the various of roles he played.
First is Genie. Mr. Williams played this character in a Disney film called Aladdin, which impacted me when I was a child. To see this blue mystical character that grants 3 wishes for anyone who posses the lamp, who is really enthusiastic, vibrant, and comical, stood out the most to me. I loved Mr. Williams’ blue character from the first few seconds he appeared on screen. All of his bodily nuances and fast pace speech gravitated me to concentrate on his dialogue so that I can catch his punchlines. Just moments before, I was viewing some of the scenes from Aladdin, and the only adjective that encapsulates this character was “ludicrous.” Most of my goofy humor was shaped by the animated Genie created by Mr. Williams, and I’m thankful of that.
Second is Sean Maguire from Good Will Hunting. This is probably one of my top 3 films of all time. Mr. Williams played a therapist to help a deeply wounded individual with his secretive past. He portrayed this loving, patient, and heartfelt character that guides this confused person. Mr. Williams’ soft and calm voice, quite opposite from his familiar loud/distinct tone, draws me to, again, pay closely attention to his speech. On occasion, I feel as if he is speaking to me whenever I am lost or confused about life. I enjoy this character very much, to the point to where I wish I had a person like that in my life. A couple of scenes are quite distinct from this movie: the park bench with Sean and Will, the scene when Sean shares about his first encounter with his wife, and the breakthrough scene with Sean and Will.
He will always be remember as the man who brought tears and laughter to everyone. However, it is unfortunate to hear how he died. He was relatively young, probably still had gas to keep on trucking through life. But, there was a leak in his tank which was caused by depression. I find it ironic to see a man who was able to bring millions to laughter and yet suffer from depression. How much was he suffering from within? How long has the destructive thoughts occupied his mind? I can only remember Mr. Williams by what has accomplished, which I think is immensely shallow of me. Granted, he is a famous actor and there is no way to know him deeply. But I wish there was a way to assist him with his depression. I’m sure he had professional counselors and what not, but it didn’t alleviate him from depression….
I apologize to hear how you passed away. My condolences to the close family and friends of yours. Unfortunately, for me, I will only remember your works produced by your efforts, a measly dying blade of grass remembers a blade of grass blown away by the wind.
I always find myself trapped in thinking about where I’ll be. What kind of job I’ll have, what kind of life I will end up with… My eyes are fixated on what’s beyond the horizon, the details of what is currently happening fade away. It is as if I have tunnel vision, similar to the race horses that wear blinkers (or blinders), constantly looking at what’s ahead. To a certain extent it is good to look forward, but not so much as to lose focus on the journey. I guess, being in my mid-20s, it is naturally to be anxious about my future and to question where I will be. But, I need to remind myself to relax and enjoy the journey that God has for me. As long as I look to him, He will guide me where I need to be. He knows where exactly he is going, so I don’t need to worry about my destination. I simply want to enjoy this ride called life~
If I could give a title of my current situation, it would be this.
Instability is the Goliath that stands before me. There I look upon it and tremble with crippling fear: “How can I over come such a gargantuan beast” I mutter. Flood gates of doubt open within my mind, drowning me with fears of the future. I’m choking… I cannot breath… The lights dim as my eyelids slowly shut.
Words mutter from somewhere, “even though I walk through the valley of shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and staff, they comfort me.” I open my eyes to see that I am still facing my opponent, but the situation has changed. No longer I fear this Goliath for my God is with me. This crippling fear has no power to prevent me from conquering my foe before me. God will give me the strength to triumph over my enemy. Praise be to the Living God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.